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Be congruent to the person you want to BECOME

If you aren’t where you want to be in life. When you don’t get the results that you want to have, then it is time to change something. You need to BECOME someone else. Only then you can also GET what you want.

Change is hard though. Everything in your body will resist that change. You will procrastinate and trick yourself into believing that you are “taking action”. Even though all you do is sitting around watching YouTube.

Strong commitment is required to make lasting change. You act now through the person you want to be. That is how you actually become that person.

How to make lasting change:
1. Know who you want to be
2. Behave like you already are that person

Fake it till you make it is the sentence to internalise in this case.

Progress Thread

So I’ve been out yesterday. In tearms of girls I had the shittiest night in a long time. Even though my original intention to go out was just to push my low self-esteem when I go out. By getting some girls to love me. It wasn’t really working yesterday. Partly because of bad luck (girls were not really availeble). And the other part was my washy mood and with that my bad vibe/lack of skill (to pushy, giving up to fast and so on). Mostly it was bad luck though and the girls just weren’t availeble. A lot of them were young and bitchy too. The young age is actually why I don’t really like to go to this club I’ve been at. There were two girls in the venue that I have already fucked though. So I ended up going home with one of them. The other one wrote me a message today. I will meet her on the weekend.

In tearms of business I made some good profits. I made 50 bucks in an hour or so. My net profit is a little bit more then 25 bucks. And I made some good new lessons on how to be a good sales person. It’s all about building rapport. You just chat up people in a nice and friendly way. You have genuinly good intentions and just vibe with them. Thats what a good sales peron does. No convincing. No hard sells. None of that shit. I also made some good connections and might make some more $$$ today.

My to do list for today is:
– tutoring lessons
– recording two voice over samples for upwork (one in english, one in my native tongue)
– recording a sample for a project I apllied to and the people were interested and wanted to have a sample
– buying a couple more broken phones and sell them for profit

Today in the evening I have a date as well. So I am on a tight schedule today. And I absolutly love it 😉

Daily Steps

Most of my life I had a hard time following and tracking my goals. Still have. Responsible for it is my ADD. Right now is pretty much the first time in my life that I have goals I actually believe in though. Following up is a must. While I don’t know how the stars align and everything will turn out ultimatly. What I can control is my actions.

There is two things I want to accomplish:

What do I want:
1. Making a lot of money
2. Banging 100 chicks

Why do I want this: Because I want to be the person that I always wanted to be.

What are the steps that I need to do to accomplish that
– Getting better at my skills:
• Writing
• Marketing
• Banging and retaining girls
• Investing money

How do I accomplish that:
To sum everything up in one word: Progress
Everything that hinders me from making progress (lack of motivation, concentration, non defined goals) are obstacles that will be blown away. I will find solutions to takle all of them.

The timetable would look the following:
4 hours a day invested in making money
4 hours a day invested in girls (actively picking up/dates etc.)
1 hour a day reading on my topics

My specific goals:
1. Having 100.000 € cash (50k for an operation, the other 50k for an apartment that I want to buy)
2. Having slept with 100 girls, as well as retaining 4 fuckbuddies for at least 6 months (6+ on my scale)

What are the daily steps that I take to accomplish those goals:
1. Having 100.000 € in Cash:
• building my brand by writing an article or recording a video/podcast
• learning about marketing
• recording a sample for a voice-over (for upwork voice-over gigs)
• writing a sample sales letter (for upwork copy writing gigs)
• get a new Product to sell on my blog and write a sales page (Bathmate)
• taking a step towards some side gig that will bring me money (e.g. buying a car to work as a ueber driver)
• apply for 5 Upwork jobs
• writing a sales page for some offline hustle (e.g. tutoring ads)
• buy something for a low and sell it for a higher price (make at least 50 bucks on it)

2. Banging and retaining girls:
– approaching 5 girls
– being on a date with a new girl (girl that I got to known in the streets/the club)
– going on a date with a girl I already know (day 2 / fuckbuddy)
– finding a solution for a sticking point that I have
– get the girl to get more emotionally invested in you

Deadlines:
12 months – banging 100 chicks and retaining for of them (deadline: 01.07.2016)
24 months – having 100.000 in cash (deadline: 01.07.2018)

I will keep myself accountable by having this blog as well as having my own little notebook to keep my daily progress.

No luck needed if controlable variables are involved.

New direction of this Blog

A big reason why I started this Blog is to try somthing new and to be active with something. I did not really had any bigger ambitions when I decided to reserve the domain that I have. Get started and everything else will fall into place, right? Right!

Because so it did. My Blog will have a new direction. I was really unfocused in what I want. My bi-polar tendencies are part of the reason. I often start something. Then get emotional over it and just quit what I did before. There is only two things in life that I just quit temporarely. Girls and Business. Because those things (along with health) are the areas where EVERYONE needs to step it up if one wants to have a fullfilled life.

Because of the anti-depressents my doctor prescribed me I had intense side-effects the entire week. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. And I was really intense and paranoid all the time. It was impossible to have a normal conversation with me.

The side-effects started to wear off as I lowered the dosage though. I do feel better at the moment. And I am certainly more focused. Even though my social motivation is really low as I am typing these words.
There is two things that I will do in life before I die:

1. Having slept with 100 girls
2. Made a million bucks

And when I say “in my life” I certainly mean before I hit 30 (I am turning 23 soon). There is nothing that is stopping me. Theoreticly. Because I am a pretty damaged and fragile person. But I am pretty smart too. Look decent. And have a lot of potential. When I play my cards right, I can accomplish anything I want. Especially now that I took something into consideration that I never dreamed of doing before in my life: A psychotherapie and anti-depressents. I am on Sertralin since around a week and will get my psychotherapie approved soon. I think both are necessary for me and so far I have decent results from it.

This Blog will be a documentation about how I will accomplish both of my goals. So it is like a diary. Sometimes it might include random stuff of my life. Other times progress and reports about what I do. I will split my big goal into smaller ones. Something that I can accomplish this year for example. So it’s easier to keep track of what I do and see if I make progress. I am not really an expert in time-management or goal setting (or anything else). So I will out most of it along the way. Feel free to join me on my Journey.

Sertralin – Antidepressents

I am officially on antidepressents now. Sertralin is the medication I get. The diagnose I got is bi-polar disorder. It makes sense. Because I had really harsh mood swings since I am around 16 years old. Turning from someone that  felt ugly and having extremly low self-esteem to someone who is overly self-confidcent and talks about nothing but how he is the shit and will conquer the world. I am 5 days into taking my medication. And I have already some observations about the medicament. Especially regarding it’s side effects.
I took my first pill on the 14.06 at 16 o’clock. Around 30 – 60 minutes later I already felt some of its effects. I felt numb and weird. I couldn’t really talk and couldn’t really smile normally. Later I became massive mood swings. A friend of mine told me that I appear as if I took some drugs like ecstasy or ketamin. I had to laugh for no reason all the time.

Yesterday I took a walk through the city with a friend. I couln’t talk normally. Every time I said something it felt really weird and unnatural. Most of the time I was not talking at all and just felt weird.

Today I started with a lower dosis then usual. My normal dosis was 50 mg. Today I started with 25 mg. I upped the dosis a few hours later. I had the normal dose of 50 mg in my body again. Later I upped it once more. So I had 75 mg of sertralin in my body. The medication throw me off completly. I was tired as never before and slept as if someone drugged me. Two hours later I woke up. It felt like I was sleeping for ages though. Right now I am feeling better then the last days. Still kind of weird though.

Since starting to take this medicament 4 days ago I have had intense mood swings that switch every hour, no appetite that was followed by an really intense appetite, insomia and feeling weak the entire day. I also felt barely any emotions. No matter what I was doing. And I can not have a basic conversation. Which is rather unusual for me because I normally talk quite a lot.